How dare you!

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What do you want with me,
I was happy and free,
You come along to take me,
I refuse you can’t make me.

My life is my own, from seeds sown,
Your not my master, your just cancer,
Your idea maybe to take me,
But I can tell you, your not my answer.

There is no way I will allow a thief,
To come in the night and steal my life. 
For it is with one person I find relief,
That is not you, she is my wife!

I hope one day, you die forever,
That scientists find our answer,
Until that day we fight together,
To free this world from cancer!

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A letter from the House of Commons.

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Well how are you today? I ask because I am interested, I am not one of these people that asks then wishes I had not when you start to tell me, how indeed you are. I mean it, and respond to everyone that responds to me. You may or may not be aware, of me. It seems many people are starting to read what I write, and what is written by others. Writing here has never been about me wanting anything, it’s always for me been about encouraging people, especially those fighting cancer and anything else hard to face. Having exsperienced it first hand, I have from the bottom of my heart wanted to encourage someone everyday for 365 days. To help just 1 person a day to carry on, to believe they would be able to get to the other end.

  
Oh I know only to well how hard it is, but just to know someone else has won the fight is encouragement in its self right? So I have started this blog you are reading, doing what I set out to do, to continually write to encourage people daily. At times I have grown weary, I have felt like it’s pointless at times. That people don’t read it anyway, I had to fight off all these negative thoughts. Like we all have them, in our own walks of life, I know that. I am just sharing with you my journey.  Then as time went on a faithful few started to share what I write, then people commented. With every comment, and every share it was like energy to me, like coal on a fire is to a steam train. People have kept me fired up, even sending me messages that you don’t see.

You see we all have a place, we all have a position in society. We have choices everyday to bless others or take for ourselves. The most successful people give opportunities to others, or encourage others to move forwards. They are people that help others get to places they hope to get, these people in life make us feel good. They give us the fuel we need to carry on. 

Yesterday one of those people was a conservative MP called Semma Kennedy, she sent me this letter.

  
 
You can’t imagine how I felt, it was totally out of the blue. It stunned me that someone had taken the time to find my address and Mail this to me.  It has given me hope as I hope it gives you hope also, that there are good people out there. People that really do care, and actively show it. After all this blog would not even exsist without it. In the end if we keep moving forwards, there has to be rewards. My rewards are never financial, mine are far more precious than that. My rewards are seeing happiness on others faces, getting all clear reports and knowing someone chose to keep going because they, were encouraged by my storey and writings. They are my rewards, yesterday was one of those days. 

Thank you for reading, and thank you Seema for making my day.

Mark

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Confidence.

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How many of us don’t do something, simply because we are unsure of the outcome. How will we know what the outcome will be if we don’t give it a shot.  It’s something people think I have in spades “confidence” Which is quite true, confidence is half the battle, if your confident then all the worrying small stuff is not considered in your forward thinking. Only those that are worriers will take into consideration all the bits that cause issues. Let me explain.

  
When I was about to have a transplant I went to see the doctor, who would tell me of the risks that my treatment would Entail, included in the list were heart failure, lung failure, kidney damage, irreversible nerve damage, pancreatic failure and many others. As I walked out of that room I put all the words and warnings he had said to the back of my mind. I had signed a consent form agreeing that I would have the treatment and if any of the side effects happened I would not sue. That’s what the point was, that I would blame no one if something went wrong. 

  
What do you do, wallow in self pity. Ask why me? Get depressed and overwhelmed with what you are to face. Or, get on with it. I chose, oh and it was a physical choice. To carry on regardless, helping myself to focus on what I could do, as opposed to what I could not change. The potential possibilities would always be there no matter what. So what’s the point in worrying, yea just gotta stand up and move forwards, doing the things that are in your control, giving yourself the best chance at surviving that’s possible. Like giving up smoking, thinking positively, never allowing people’s words to bring you down. Keeping away from germs that little ones maybe carrying. But no matter what keeping focused on a long term goal, moving closer towards it. 

  
The goal I set for myself was a holiday, a friends brother in law speaks about always having a holiday to look forward to, he always books the next one as soon as he gets back off holiday which makes each day that bit nicer. We were not able to book our holiday as we had no idea what side effects I may have after treatment. But what I did have was confidence that I would make it. Saying the words that you know I say, I WILL and I CAN. you can be what ever you want to be, you just need to have that confidence to remove all barriers that are in your way. To believe whole heartedly that I would win and stand on that beach with my friends, then in turn swim with dolphins with my wife which has been a life long ambition. Even turning down an opportunity to do this in Kiakora New Zealand simply because I was doing it solo. Doing that with my wife will be amazing.

  It’s now our time, a time for us to shake off the cobwebs and live our life. 10/09/2015 means I am 47 and oh how proud I feel to have made that happen. To have triumphed over that horrible thing we call cancer. There is a song that’s very dear to me, it’s a song that we have wanted to fulfil the words to. To feel real love in the home that we live it, now after our triumph we do. How amazing is that.

Have a great week,

Mark

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Cured!

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Written on wed 2nd sept.

Today is a special day, it didn’t start out a special day at all. My wife’s in Ireland, I am home alone but it’s pool night tonight which is great. I had my blood tested a week ago as I had a rash on my body, but it was consultant day today. I had called the hospital, and they sad it was ok for the cancer specialist nurse to phone me in the afternoon. Now you have to know that my specialist nurse is lovely, I trust her, believe what she tells me is for my own good. I feel love towards her, and feel her passion for people.

  I spent hours in this room, and owe my life to all the medical staff that work here.
She called me at about 4 pm, I love hearing her voice it’s a nice kind tone. She talked me through my blood test, and explained most things were back to normal. As she talked with me she exsplained about the transplant. Saying that they don’t send people for them unless they are aiming for cure, now I  am not soft but I hung on that word cure. Like a lobster had its tea in its claws. She went on to exsplained that in the main, people that have a relapse after a transplant generally do in the first 100 days. Now whilst I am not stupid and know that it’s possible to relapse anytime. It was comforting to know that the odds had gone up in my favour. 

  
As she talked explaining different parts of what my side effects were, I found myself wondering if there was anything I could do to higher my chances even more. The next sentence has rung true in my head over and over again. She said these words.

“Of course you have to be careful, just like you have and will be. Mark, you have a life to live now, you can’t wrap yourself up in cotton wool any more. Your cured”! Well it took a while before those words really hit home. That cure is what was being aimed for and I have to believe it’s it.. About an hour later I became a blithering wreck. 

  
All the faith, we had. The love and support from my family, and friends. But most of all ( and it’s still there) the warmth I feel inside that my wife does not have to worry about me having cancer any more. Ok I get it will always be in our minds but we are free to enjoy life. We are free to enjoy a life that we have together… Wow it’s just amazing it really is.  How free I feel inside, my next visit to the hospital after my lung function on Thursday will be 22nd October  I can’t tell how I feel, but everyone should feel like this once in their life. It’s a feeling of total satisfaction, like no more could have been done. We did our best and it was good enough.

  
A special thank you to each and everyone of you that has and still there for us. Your amazing.

A really grateful CURED….

Mark

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Super heroes

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what do you want to be? What drives you, what Spurs you on. Well do you mind if I attempt to tell you what drives me. my world has changed dramatically in the last 10 years. My ideas were always about chasing money, wealth to achieve happiness. I am a really keen F1 fan and I remember a quote from Ron Dennis which rings true in my mind “money is only a problem if you don’t have any” it’s so true. I was always striving for the next big thing, the next quick money making scheme , I was driven by greed. I was driven by what I had, not what I could give. 

As I have gotten older I realise the words of the Robbie Williams song “youth is wasted on the young”from the song eternity. It really is, because by the time you realise what’s real important in life, it’s to late and we are not young anymore. http://youtu.be/P0aZNEXdFCE

  
My life has been turned inside out and upside down, learningn to use this strong body and mind in many different ways over the years. Although never more so in this room, solitude in isolation has helped find what’s of real importance. I am sure I will never be annoyed by birds doings on my car again. I will enjoy the love of my family whole heartedly. I will never exspect again, only cherish and cultivate that which has become so very dear to me. “Life” 

 

Picture above will be me when I leave here, although it will take 3 months to get strong enough to be like this doggy.

I want to Dance like no one is watching again.

  
Never looking back just moving forwards to the goal that is the most very important.Have you figured it out yet? what the most important thing on earth we can process is? It’s a bit of a trick question really. Because it can’t be bought, you can’t gaze at it like my beutiful TVR.

  
It’s not something you can touch or hold, it’s so precious it’s priceless. What I speak of comes from within, it comes from contentment, it comes from being at peace however you find that. It comes from spiritual contentment and being able to just LET God.

I am classed by some kids of people we love, as a superhero, so one who is indestructible. I am not indistructble I am just as delicate as the next man. 1 thing I am though and that’s Happy. That’s the key to all these eliments put together. Happiness. See if we have that we are wealthy, rich and abounding with beauty with in us. Loving yourself is an amazing thing. I mean who’s gonna turn round and tell me or you that your not happy only you know that, only you know how you are inside.

  
Have a great day and I hope you to will become happy inside with your choices as opposed to striving for more which just makes us slaves. I want to help people with Cancer forever. I want to encourage people everyday to be better people. Giving fulfils us inside, giving warms our hearts like we have never know.

You gonna do that today? Give to someone and make you happy?

I hope so.

Fonz

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Picc line Removed.

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chemotheropy with a picc line is a great way to have it administered. It’s a small tube placed in your arm into a vien going to a main archery near your heart. Mine was 35 cm long. I had mine fitted in January to have my ICE chemo. It’s a real pain having it as it protrudes from your body and it’s uncomfortable sometimes. That line became my friend, because with it in there are no more injections to take your blood. 

Well today was the day I had to say goodbye to that friend, but it also signified that I would not be having treatment at southport anymore. It was a little emotional saying Thankyou to all my day care nurses at southport oncology. But somehow a relief that we had completed the journey with no hick ups. This will take me to a small space in royal Liverpool hospital for 4 weeks where I will have to have my transplant. I can see light at the end of the tunnel now. That day I dream of is coming nearer.

You can find details of my journey on 

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A 7 year fight all because of a lump. Still I stand, time to dig in once again next week and see off this Cancer once and for all.. 

 

Fonz

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Everything you read are based on my own experience and my own opinions. I express them here to encourage you. Please share with others, if it meant something to you it will to someone else. All images are from a Google search. Or my own.

Copyright © 2016