Happiness is for everyone else, not us.

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Happiness is for everyone else. Not us.
That’s how I was made to feel on hearing the words. It’s true I could had a family young. My choice was to live a life a life that I enjoyed on many occasions of course that life was never completely perfect not until we met each other. We were just pawns living this thing called life. Sure I knew I was blessed with knowing God and all the joy that brings with it. But there is something about having the opportunity of having children. Our own to love and cherish. A chance to bring a child into this world with non of the money worries. In a fairly comfortable way.

We are fortunate in a way that I have stored some swimmers that could potentially give us that opportunity through IVF (Test tube fertilisation) but I don’t know how I feel about that. But it’s our chance to have a miracle. So who knows maybe that’s where our miracle will happen, I don’t know but it’s a bit like the biscuit tin as a child. It’s something I hope for more than ever now.
My friend said this to me this morning
“Take time to relax and come to terms with it, having kids is not everything. You have each other, and some people go through their whole life never experiencing that kind of love, treasure what you have.”
So that’s gonna now be my focus been as no other advice I have to go on, I guess it’s the best advice. You do feel less of a man that’s for sure like your whole meaning of what we are put on this earth to do has been stripped from us because I beat cancer. Well I suppose there has to be a consequence to any action you take in life. It’s just the only option I had was to have chemo to steal a few more years. I am mad to not want to leave a legacy behind. That maybe I live on through my son or daughter. 
I guess this is just another part of cancer, you create your home, make it a home and then hope for the pitter patter of feet in the surroundings you have created. Imagine a Christmas morning with our dog faith, Jenson our cat, Mark Andie and our new miracle with us, crackling of the wood on the fire. The warmth not only from the fire but from our hearts as we experience the journey that is family.

Right now I feel robbed again, but in usual Fonz style, I am gonna believe for the miracle that the little girl got in the film miriacl on 34th Street. If you have not watched the film them please watch it, so you to can realise what our miracle would be.
It’s not the fault of the nurse that gave me the news that my sample had no sperm in it at all. It’s cancers fault of that there is no debate. Cancer has taken this from me and made me infertile. Some may find it funny, but I assure you who read this there is nothing funny about cancer and it’s effects. I will as Johnny says treasure what we do have and move on from this. They did tell me it would be so, otherwise why would they have asked me to store some swimmers. Life that’s what I am gonna focus on, and the brilliance of another day, yes I am sad, yes I am even shedding a tear as I write this blog. 
But I must enjoy what we do have not want what we don’t have, I must have faith that Gods Will Will be done. 

Here’s hoping for our miracle on our street.
Have a great day.
Fonz

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Passion.

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You ever stopped to think about what you are passionate about, I am not going to start reeling off the things you could be passionate about. But what I do know, is that if your passionate about life, then you have faced losing your own life, or someone close to you. If it’s a thing something without a heart then, you have only ever known life. I envy you in some ways because you will feel invincible. I most certainly have a passion for cars, I love the sound and the smell of a roaring V8. My brother has just bought a car boasting a V12 engine, a very different sound to the V8’s  I have grown to love. That roar to me is life because I can understand what goes into making a beautiful car. But I also know what has gone into enabling me to be able to hear that sound today, which I guess completely contradicts my first statement. Pointless post?

Not entirely, because although I am still passionate about the smell and sound of engines and all things that are loud and competitive in that realm. I have become passionate about people and what they face, I have a certain empathy with people that are facing illness and battles through no fault of their own. I mean lets have it right, an accident, and illness, things caused by something we don’t control can change a life. That is where my passion has its main focus these days, supporting others that are not fortunate in the cards they have been dealt. 

  
We can all choose to care or walk on by. The people that walk on by are most certainly the majority, which of course is a shame. It’s down to us to infect people isn’t it? No it’s our job to affect people to want to give something to someone, to want to help someone to grow. To feel wanted, needed and important, I did not choose cancer. Cancer chose me, there are no ways to keep cancer away. If cancer wants you it WILL have you. The accident you were in that changed your life forever, that was always going to happen. You can’t blame yourself, it’s happened in your life. 

I am passionate about turning what has tried to ruin my life, into something that drives me in life. I use the very effects of cancer on my body to ignite a positives within me to help others and therefore don’t find many days where I am as dispondent as I could be. You may have noticed I have not written for a couple of days, I am still on track to write my 365 posts in 365 days because there has been days I have written more than one. I have been and still am ill with flu, but feel like I am on the mend now. 

  
What ever the thing is that’s happened in your life, to crush your life. Use that to ignite the passion within you to do something that you never would have done had you not been affected by the situation you are in. Holding your head in your hands, or lifting your head up. So that you are able to give others a lift up, is far more worthy.Ignite you passion for life that you know is there, it could be bacuse of your situation that someone finds encouragement in the story you tell.

Have a great week

Fonz

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Build your dream.

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No one can stop you from having a dream, no one can stop you from setting any goal you want to set. The man that does, WILL have hardship, that man will have a stumbling blocks placed before him. Of course those that do not do are no threat to the world, so guess what,you are more likely to have an easier ride than the man that does. You see in life, there will not be great things done, unless you think great. Right at the start of Cancer for me, which lets face it is. (Life) but did not cancer happen so that men might have life.. Really it’s true, God uses weakness. He will not use strength unless that strength has been learnt through humility, humility comes from weakness. Your purpose is greater than your pain.

  
In my life, a life I have chosen to have. I dare to dream and by faith believe that that dream will happen. Every dream I have involves people being blessed, I hope for love and healing for people that suffer. It’s not just cancer sufferers I  hope will be blessed, and even healed. You have a right to dream, and the dream can be as big as you like. But seriously, how can any man make a dream come true if he has no dream. 

  
 Who ever you are, what ever you face you can. Only the thoughts in your mind restrict you,  but believing by faith can bring all your dreams to fruition and much more. I share how I feel and the struggles I face daily, so that you can know that it’s normal to feel low, it’s normal to lose hope because of your situation. It’s normal to have a dip in your life, your day or week. I can choose to live a life  where I dare to dream, or a life where I fight for everything. What was it I dreamt at the beginning of this blog. Oh yea that’s right, beating cancer. I dreamt, the war is won. You CAN win yours to, but for you to build on that you have to have a dream. I cannot wait yo hear your stories.

Have a great day

Fonz

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We can dream

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So, it’s a glorious sunny day here looking out over the river Mersey from my executive box. A place I want to forget about. Hopefully this will be the week when I go back to my family (a tear rolls) don’t get your hopes up Mark what will be will be. It’s that  I am working towards, the dream of feeling my wife’s skin next to mine having beaten death. Being in the same room as my dog Faith. Hugging my family, my dear friends who have been there for me. Oh and our new friends replacing old ones that seem to have nothing to say.

I have been having nightmares in here, so what I do is replace them in the morning with dreams like this. 

 

And this

  
You may have other dreams, seeing your grandchild. Going on holidays, riding a yacht in the med. going to a F1 Grand Prix. 

If we bring F1 into the mix it’s not just the watching I would like to do I dream of doing a circuit with one of the British drivers Lewis or Jenson (we have a cat named after Jenson) I dream of meeting people in the know. Chatting to Nigel about that terrible yr that he should have won, the fierce rivalry between piquet and mansel.

 
I dream of a garage like this, a man cave full of eye candy. I believe this. It’s very simple.

“If you don’t have a dream, how can we make one come true.” There is only 1 stumbling block in the way of it. YOU. ME. It’s not about how far out of reach it is that’s you, telling yourself that. YOU can be what ever you want to be. You CAN achieve your goals. 

Don’t be the person that says “that’s a good idea” then does nothing but put on coronation street or some other time stealing programme on tv.

Be that person that stands up moving the chair backwards in the motion of standing. Then doing, it’s so easy to come up with excuses. Statements like “i am set in my ways now” bull n you know it. “It’s to much hassle” if it was easy everybody would be doing it. 

“I am happy with my life” if that’s the case you should never say things like “if only” “I wish” “could really do with” I am overjoyed for you if you are happy with your life. 

I truly am happy with who I am, happy I have done all I can to sustain my life. Happy with my wife, life and looking to find people that will inspire me to affect others lives. Helping them not only to achieve what they strive for but also, to believe they have the fight within them to beat Cancer also.

  
This is a friend of mines a vintage racing driver. ‘Peter candy’ Google him he is amazing also a courageous man that has had his own fights as well. I love that man, because of his passionate nature.

  
Don’t hold back on your dreams, you have been given the gift of life. Use it, don’t waste it. Get out there and have some amazing times. Concentrate on siezing your day. 

What your still on the sofa? I have had and am still doing, having the fight of my life. I WILL win. There is no way I can lose. Because negatives are booted out if they even try to enter my head.

Be content of course, but make your dream a reality what ever it is. My immidiate goal is to beat this desease. 

If I can you can, now go on make it happen. Just make it happen. Mark