Accept who you are not what you were.

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U can be who you want to be, that’s what I tell my wife. Some words I may have said before but I know that what I write now will help someone today or sometime in the future. I have not been here for a while, I apologise. I have been helping my good friend to errect my conservatory. I have spoken before in my last post about impossible, that the only part of impossible that stops it big possible is the I’m in the word. Is not the only person that matters holding your past against you. Is, erm you? Is it not you that’s giving you a hard time maybe feeling guilty for your past, something you did or did not do? One thing I do know is that what someone else’s opinion is is both nothing to do with you, and nothing to do with them. Let go what someone else thinks about you, what you are is in your hands and your past does NOT define your future.

Your future starts in the next hour, the next afternoon. But always today, your future does not start tomorrow. You are the one that chooses who you are. You also chose what you were, but that’s not a part of your future , only if you want it to be. Your past is in your hands, it’s up to you yo hold on to it or let it go. It’s up to you to let your past mood you and benifit your future. No one is to blame for your future, only you. Don’t start yo tell me yes but such and such and this and that, you choose what happens next. You really do, don’t be a head hanger. Hold your head up high and keep moving forwards, keep believing in yourself and keep doing. 


Believe me I could show you pictures of me that say I want to give up, I could tell you stories of how cancer has made me want to check out, how I have thought badly of myself because of who I was and what I did. Trouble with that is that people will believe what ever it is you believe of yourself and there are plenty of people willing to be negative about you out there so why actually be one yourself. Be good to you, say good things about you. Above all do good to others every day of your life, that’s really important. Use your life, don’t regret your life.

Fonz

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Living in fear.

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Every itch, every spot, every abnormality on my skin. Anything that appears not right, you wonder. You wonder if it will return, you feel torcher day and night. It’s a fear I try to dilute with positivity, with giving to others. I try not to be scared, but sometimes when I feel itchy I remember all the hospital visits and the pain that caused. The ulcers, the sickness, the weakness, the crushed passion that I have inside me. Today I was in the pallet shed with Karl and we began to talk about our dreams, we spoke about building our dream homes. The missed opertunities along the journey of life, or some might say the choices we have made become consequences. Or just maybe you are meant to be here. 

  
Maybe it was all supposed to happen, and what will be will be. Why worry when you can be happy, why not listen to all the advice I seem to be glad to dish out, without actually living for today myself.  How do I stop these feelings of fear, the bible says “perfect love, casts out all fear” I need to be at peace. Go realise that I have done my best to be here. That I could do no more except maybe give up smoking sooner. Why did I smoke, what on earth was I thinking. Was I crazy, what were the benefits? A waste of money, a cough, phlegm, and I stank. 

  
Why give myself a hard time for any of my life choices, I chose them. But now I crave a longer life, a healthier life. I crave to be the helping hand to many, I can’t live a life of regret. A life which is full of should have and could haves. It has to be full of, doing, smiles, laughter, happiness, freedom, faith, belief, hope and love. But where does my strength come from, the strength I have is a gift. Borne out of faith, confidence and self belief. You see not many people on earth will believe in you if you don’t. People pick up on your weaknesses and some may even try to exspoit them. I rember a dear friend said to me once. “Why don’t other people want to give, why are so many takers” well I don’t know that answer but what I do know are things like we are what we say we are. 

  
That we can turn left or right at a junction, and who is to say that either way is right. It’s our choice after all, so why be unhappy about that choice. It’s our life that we have been given, so you know what. I have to replace the fear with something. I am going to choose belief, belief that what’s happened to me is for a reason. That what will happen to me will be for a reason, that my life is of value. That  moving forwards is vital, that others opinions are just that. Theirs ! 

  
So my conclusion after this little talk with myself, this outlet. This one that you are reading right now, is the right thing to be doing, that my honesty and openness is of value. That life is of value, it’s an amazing thing to be alive and I should be grateful for what I have, not fearful of what maybe. We are given what we are given right, some get cancer and some don’t. I did but I gotta start to live now, I am going to look forwards and live by faith. By doing my best at all times possible. To live more, to give more, to dance more no matter how much my wife says it looks like dad dancing.

  
Have a great week, what ever you decide.

Mark

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Everything you read are based on my own experience and my own opinions. I express them here to encourage you. Please share with others, if it meant something to you it will to someone else.