The 47 yr old naked me.

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fat, happiness, happy, hope, illness, love, selfbelief, selfless

Every morning I get up, I am naked as the day I was born. I know I am a slightly different shape to the day I was actually born.  But never the less I am still faced with the same old problem. How to make this rather over weight, middle aged man look good. Well actually those were my dating days. It was always a real pain breathing in on those dates I used to go on, of course some dates I went on I rather felt disappointed I had made the effort and did not bother to hold my waist in at all on those dates. Trouble with that though was that, buttons on my jeans burst and belts snapped. Recently I have become more comfortable getting up and not being able to see where my bits were, finding a mirror rather more useful than I had before this time in my life.

  
I must admit I have been rather struggling with the fact that I am no longer a 32 ” waist and have finally realised that just because the bee gees are playing on the 80’s music channel it does not mean that 32″ jeans fit comfortably like they did back then.  I have until 2 days ago imagined myself as that well toned strong fit athletic figure of a man. Trouble with that was though that it was a memory and not a reality. I kinda sneaked past 34″ waist without anyone noticing. Now I do apologise if you have at any point imagined me naked at any point here. Please ask God for forgiveness unless you are my mum. But even if you are my mum. Trust me mum I don’t look anything like you may think I do. 

I used to be frightened of the Family belly and as time went on and hit 40 I had to rest a lot and my 34″ waist became a 36″ now I am saying this. But until two days ago I just thought it was my reflection getting fat and not actually me. I don’t know if this rings a bell. Anyway I woke up last Thursday and tried on ALL my jeans and non fitted yup and they all were 36″ so I had to face facts. I looked in the mirror at me and my fella. I felt sorry for myself as I uttered the words. Me and you are a 38″ pal we just are we just gotta go and get some that actually fit my fat size and be happy about it.

Now I went in the shop, embarrassed as I uttered the sentence to the passing shop assistant ” Hi I can see 38″ long leg but no regular ” she sniggered and went off to find some. But this is the truth, I bought 3 pairs of £10 jeans that were next to the £36 jeans. Why because I will I hope one day, want to get back into a 36″ waist ( I don’t want to aim to high ) as she walked away I realised that I would never go to a party again and be thought of as attractive, but maybe be asked if I was a grandparent yet. 

Now I realise I am a 38″ and feel happy that they need hitching up, it makes that 32″ man I imagine seem more real now. This post I wrote because I am now happy with the fat me and hoped you would have some fun reading it.

Have a great day

Being happy with who you are today.

Fonz

Bloggers I love.

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Bloggers I love, that I have found to be selfless this week.

  
http://marieabanga.wordpress.com
One of the kindest bloggers to walk the planet, an encouraging soul that just wants to give to the world.
Sometimes I may only find one, but this week I found 2 in particular.
Also 
http://kwoted.wordpress.com
This lady does her best to encourage those around her, I thought she was a very kind hearted individual.
http://firefly465.wordpress.com
Although this blogger is new Adele is most certainly someone who is for you not against you. Someone who is selfless and provides informative information to her fellow bloggers wanting nothing in return.
That’s who I found this week, I wonder if you will be in the bloggers I love blog next week. 
Fonz

http://www.fonzandcancer.com

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Our support group on our FB

Cancer stories (people helping people through experience) 

It’s a group where people’s experiences are used to encourage others. 

Everything you read are based on my own experience and my own opinions. I express them here to encourage you. Please share with others, if it meant something to you it will to someone else. All images are from a Google search. Or my own.

Copyright © 2016

Recommended bloggers. I love bloggers.

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cancer, help, hope, love, oldman, selfless, superbowl

Hi everyone,

Every week whilst I meet people online, I have been looking out mainly people that I did not know. People that seem to blog because they have but one motive, to encourage and reach out to other people. Here are the people I have found this week, people that are there selflessly and not for stats, or hits, or their own gain. But selfless kind people that get overlooked. It’s my hope that every week I am able to share links of these type of people. 
If you yourself find someone you think is worthy, please draw them to my attention?

http://dreambigdreamoften.wordpress.com

Danny shares people’s links everyday, he is a caring man himself and while he suffers himself daily, he has always got Time for others. Thanks Danny. – Fonz

http://timenomatter.wordpress.com

This blogger Kat, one of life’s good people. Paying for the persons coffee behind them in the line, spreading human kindness. I like that a lot… Thanks Kat

http://ramblingsofk.wordpress.com

Kim is one of the kindest bloggers I have met, she is always there ready to offer help to anyone. I have seen her reach out to others daily. Why don’t you nip over and giver some encouragement. Thanks Kim. 😊

Unless we make a change, how is the world going to even be ever so slightly better, I believe it starts with us being selfless in our lives. Giving with out wanting anything in return. I am enjoying finding these people.  Although I have spoken to many more people this week, you spend time getting to know someone don’t you. For sure there are people that I want to recommend it could be you.  Please take the time to read these blogs, I believe these people to be selfless. Please do make me aware of people you think need a mention.

Have a great week

– Fonz

http://www.fonzandcancer.com

Follow me on Twitter

@fonzmark

Email – fonzicloud@icloud.com

Our support group on our FB

Cancer stories (people helping people through experience) 

It’s a group where people’s experiences are used to encourage others. 

Everything you read are based on my own experience and my own opinions. I express them here to encourage you. Please share with others, if it meant something to you it will to someone else. All images are from a Google search. Or my own.

Copyright © 2016

Diamonds, are they Wealth or loss?

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diamonds, faith, feel, help, hope, integrity, love, others, people, selfless

It is a fact that diamonds will last forever. Out last me or you, Lilly Allen says people die trying yo find them. Whilst I don’t like some of her language in her song I do believe her. I mean what’s more important in life, a diamond that will outlast me or you or what truly matters. Have you indeed worked out what truly matters? You live a life, and search for the secret of life, you try to find it in gold, money, diamonds, all the while being distracted by women and things that perish and rust away. You see I think I have found the answer and it most certainly isn’t in diamonds, gold or anything else that lives on this planet.

The things that are priceless on this earth are not even from this earth, it can’t be seen touched or held. We are made to be humans that have emotion, is that emotion in a marriage, a relationship. Is it not true that we will never know if a person loves us, they may show us by actions, gifts, holidays, even diamonds. But surely 7 billion people have not been put on this planet for Gods own pleasure. I mean I know God laughs with us all as he watches us scrat around, living our aimless lives. 

If you can see or touch it, it is worthless, maybe not completely but most certainly what we can touch and feel in its physical form will not exsist some day.

Are not the things that truly matter in life, unseen priceless and worth our effort. After all when we leave this planet we will leave with nothing, so what will we leave behind. A house, a car, some bonds, £25. A diamond worth a fortune? It’s all worthless in the end. So what is it that has worth in my opinion, it’s clearly not physical. You would be right there.

  
It’s about integrity, faith to believe that no matter what happens. That you are doing your best, you make people feel the feeling inside that brings security, Love and a belief that what you dream is not futile. What matters is the differance you make in someone’s life, the way you make them feel inside. Non of what I speak of costs anything except the time God has given you on this earth. What you think your so special that God has a different plan for you? No one is that special, we are all given the same capabilities, but different journeys. I believe you can encourage someone, that you are given that ability. Choose to be that person that makes someone feel amazing, as apposed to seeking for yourself. Give someone that smile only you can give them today, someone’s happiness is in your hands. Love is without doubt the greatest gift of all.

Fonz

http://www.fonzandcancer.com

Follow me on Twitter

@fonzmark

Email – fonzicloud@icloud.com

Our support group on our FB

Cancer stories (people helping people through experience) 

It’s a group where people’s experiences are used to encourage others. 

Everything you read are based on my own experience and my own opinions. I express them here to encourage you. Please share with others, if it meant something to you it will to someone else. All images are from a Google search. Or my own.

Positive (in isolation)

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Becoming more positive (Cancer battle continues)
At the start of day, we were full of positive energy, that was the start of yesterday, tunes pumping upbeat, positive energy. Even when my body did start to dip I was still looking and finding positives. It’s such a shame FaceTime was so bad a connection last night. But at least I had a conversation with the man I needed to who understands. Not only the human body in depth but has faced times like this before. I so wish I had a bike Stepper of like. But I do press ups and walk around nearly all day.
We both, (me and my wife) find ways of coping, I don’t think my Andie would ever see me this way, nor did I if the truth be known. Funny isn’t it how a strong man, never gets asked how he is. Only my true friends have ever done that.

  
I drift off on holidays in my mind, face demons head on, and keep inching forwards. Yesterday afternoon I found I was not in any control of my emotions what so ever. The tequniques I had been using did not work. I got hugly depressed (not suicidal) but actually wanted to say a word no one is allowed to say in my room. It has can in it with a t at the end of the word. Your not allowed to say that here, no matter what your focus has to be about that moment in time. Never looking to far forwards. The tunnel annalegy is incorrect in here. (Iam finding anyway) I use my dads theory more now of dealing with each moment and getting through that. Only focusing on tomorrow when it arrives. 

 
 In where u don’t find positives, u have to find them somewhere. U have to actively search. My Twitter feed @fonzmark is just full of positive quote after positive. 
Please know I will rise again and I will do this (focus bk Skyman) it’s not a journey anyone can do. It takes guts to have the strength of mind when u don’t have a functioning mind in the first place. (Because treatment is destroying who you are) 
1 thing I have learned, there is no such thing as a normal day in here. You can’t exsect certain things to happen u just have mins to deal with that are IMPOSSIBLE that somehow you make possible.
I hope this helps u all. But seriously going to work, screaming kids, these are all minute details we just do. In here its a creation of a day everyday. All this info whilst not had these times of despair before will help others that have to walk this walk in the future. 
But we are here, I don’t get any help from some people at all, shameful self obsessed people that think they are … Well no idea, they just watch. I wanna say more but I must try my best to get some hours under my belt that will be ticked off whilst I sleep. Day +5 now means day after tomorrow I will start to come back +6 is today’s focus. I am thank ful for you all. Mark
JUST BLESS SOMEONE NO MATTER WHAT.